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Continuation of the Morgantown week post! You may still RP at the first post, this new post is just to help keep things tidy. :D For a more detailed account of this week, go to the first post.
WHAT'S HAPPENING TODAY
- Winery
- Cooper's Rock
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O Sparkly One is currently...sleeping!
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Date: 2012-10-12 02:40 am (UTC)*he takes out his old AC/DC shirt and a pair of boxers and then goes to knock softly on the bathroom door*
*Ruby opens it an inch and eyes him like he's the enemy*
*whispers, hoping the girls fall asleep quickly* Here *holds out the clothes* Just...thought you'd want something more comfortable to sleep in. *looks away* I'll shower until you fall asleep and then I'll take the floor.
*shuts the door for her and goes to find some clothes for himself*
-Dean
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Date: 2012-10-12 02:44 am (UTC)*Once she catches his eye she motions for him to come back over and then retreats back into the bathroom*
*she closes her eyes and takes a deep breath, letting it out slowly*
- Ruby
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Date: 2012-10-12 02:47 am (UTC)*he's pretty sure it can't get any worse than what she's already said to him but his nerves twist his stomach as he goes back into the bathroom, shutting the door behind him with a soft click*
*he sets his clothes down on the counter and eyes Ruby carefully*
*whispers* Hey, Ruby.
-Dean
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Date: 2012-10-12 02:53 am (UTC)Hi.
You can't sleep on the floor. What's the point of not telling her if you're gonna show her?
I...I don't know why you're here. Or how. I just... *sighs* You can't sleep on the floor.
*she starts to squeeze by him to go back out into the room*
- Ruby
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Date: 2012-10-12 02:57 am (UTC)I'm gonna tell her... I don't know how to tell her. I can handle you rejecting me, Ruby, I get it, you don't wanna be with me, you don't care what I think or what we had, fine. But Diana and Maddie...they will not understand. They will not understand that you don't want to be a part of their family anymore.
*he blocks the door with his body, but his face is gentle, not angry like it was yesterday morning but his eyes hold her gaze steadily*
You can hurt me if you want, Ruby, but I'm not letting you hurt my girls. So you figure out what you want to do, or get out. I'm holding up my bargain, I'm here to make sure you're safe but if you think I drove up here to beg you to love me again, you're wrong.
*he moves away from the door and steps around her, turning the shower on*
-Dean
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Date: 2012-10-12 03:09 am (UTC)I'm not a part of this, Dean. You made that clear. Don't presume you know what I want though... I would give anything.... The life in those pictures? You and those girls?
She's a part of that. Not me. I... I'm always gonna be in the outside of it looking in at what she had...
But don't you dare act like I have a choice. You love her...the me I can't remember. You all do. There's no room for me to have a choice. There's only room for me to playact at what I would... I haven't been able to eat since... God, why am I even...
Never mind. Sleep where you like.
Goodnight, Dean... *turns to slip out of the bathroom*
- Ruby
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Date: 2012-10-12 03:17 am (UTC)*realizes how loud he was and drops his voice down low again* That's fucking bullshit, Ruby.
You are the only person I know who would wake up in the morning with a man who would die for them, two little girls who think the sun rises and sets on her, and fucking feel sorry for herself. You don't remember? Too bad, we'll figure it out. We'll fix it or we'll tell you about every minute of our lives that you don't remember until you know it so well it's like you do. Or hell, here's an idea, we start over. You want me to fly back to the beach and make you fall in love with me again? Drag you to Venice and show you every sight we saw together, everywhere we kissed, make love and drink wine out of bottle, cause I'll do that too.
You, you are the one not trying here. Not me. I've done every single thing I can think of to help you, to try to get you to want to help yourself.
But all you want is a fucking pity party and to stomp up the coast crying about going back to a home that you didn't even like to begin with.
You had a choice. You've always had a choice. And you just made it.
*lets her go and starts stripping, to angry to care if she's in the room and what she thinks of him naked or if she's gone when he gets out. Everyone leaves. He remembers feeling this way when he and Ruby met. That it would end one of two ways. He'd get her killed or she would leave. And he was right*
-Dean
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Date: 2012-10-12 03:39 am (UTC)How dare you say I'm not trying. Everything I've done... You're right. I did make my choice. I wanted this...this life, but it felt like I was taking something that wasn't mine to have. Just because I didn't take this in stride...
*pokes him in the chest, right over the tattoo she keeps looking at part of her really wants to trace with her tongue. FOCUS, RUBY, FOCUS.* You say you've done everything. That you'll try all these other things like recreating memories we already shared together...
Put up or shut up, Dean. *her eyes search his face* Show me. Make me remember something.
- Ruby
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Date: 2012-10-12 03:45 am (UTC)*his face burns and he grinds his teeth together hard for a minute before he allows himself to say anything. When he speaks his voice is sharp, angry and his words come slow while he tries to control himself*
And why...the hell...should I? So you can reject it again, storm off again, cuss me out, hit me? Yeah, you're giving me a hell of a lot to fight for here.
*leans down until his face is just in front of hers*
No. You were right. The girl I love is gone. We don't know each other.
So get out.
*he opens the bathroom door, carrying the clothes he had brought for her and goes to the motel room door. He undoes the bolts and opens it.*
Go.
-Dean
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Date: 2012-10-12 03:59 am (UTC)Right... Easier to say you'll do anything than to actually follow through when I'm standing here... Easier to reject me first.
*doesn't move to pick up the clothes, just standing there in his t-shirt and boxers after snagging her room key*
Tell them I'm sorry... That I wish... *she glances over at the girls asleep, lightly touching the bandage he'd placed on her arm* I'll wish my wishes for them.
*turns to walk a couple doors down, barefoot, to her room*
- Ruby
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Date: 2012-10-12 04:04 am (UTC)You've made it damn clear you don't want me. So excuse me while I quit feeling bad about it. I've got kids to raise, things to hunt, you know, the usual.
So have a good night, Ruby.
*closes the door and locks it*
*he looks at the girls who had slept through the whole thing, thank god, and then sits back down at the table...trying to think of what he's going to say in the morning*
-Dean
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Date: 2012-10-12 04:25 am (UTC)*she goes in the bathroom and runs cool water over her now battered knuckles, wincing at the way it burns. she looks up at herself in the mirror and splashes cold water on her face.*
*the next morning, not long after she first saw movement in the room indicating Diana and Dean were both up, she knocks on the door with a bag of doughnuts and three coffees. She has dark glasses on to hide the circles under her eyes and tries to focus on the smell of the coffee, because the doughnuts are only reminding her of the syrupy sweet smell of the pancakes and french toast. She swallows and glances to make sure the long sleeves are covering most of her hands.*
Room Service. Open up.
- Ruby
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Date: 2012-10-12 04:29 am (UTC)*he came out to knocking at the door and assumed it was the maid, and went to open it to tell them they didn't need anything*
Hey we're f--
Ruby.
What are you-- *he wants to grill her, wants to ask who the fuck she thinks she is coming back here after the night before, but...she looks like hell. And he hadn't gotten around to telling Diana yet so he can't make a big deal out of this*
*he takes a deep breath and holds open the door, stepping out of the way*
-Dean
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Date: 2012-10-12 04:43 am (UTC)I grabbed some coffee too while I was out. *she's wearing a skirt and his t-shirt from the night before, with a long-sleeved shirt layered underneath and pulled over her hands*
Black with whiskey. Hold the whiskey. *sets his coffee on the table and takes one over to sit near Diana on the bedside table.* Pumpkin spice latte. I couldn't resist... Got one for both of us. *smiles*
*she sits on the edge of the bed and sips her drink, tenatively in case her stomach is still touchy* So Granny said she'd have rooms for us... Did I tell you she also runs a boarding house? I don't know if I ever mentioned that. *takes a deep breath and continues, still perpetually bracing herself for rejection, but she has to try.* It's only a couple hours up the road really. She sounded pretty excited about meeting everyone. *finally lets herself glance up at Dean*
- Ruby
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Date: 2012-10-12 04:56 am (UTC)*the words are out of his mouth before he can think about how he has to explain to Diana*
We aren't going to meet the gang, Ruby. Not like this. What the hell are you even--
*growls and shuts himself up when he sees Diana's expression, she's gone from worried to almost scared and he knows it's his fault*
Ruby, can I borrow you for a second?
*doesn't wait for an answer before stalking outside, leaving the door open behind him*
-Dean
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Date: 2012-10-12 05:18 am (UTC)I didn't say "the gang", I said Granny. *she pushes the glasses up on her head, her hand shaking slightly*
You can keep pushing me away...but last night...back at the diner... You were right. I feel like I've been dying inside ever since and I can't... I'm sorry.
You're my family. She's my family. She...said some things I don't understand Dean... Pretty weird things actually. I think she might be going a little senile... Curses and magic and stuff. You wouldn't believe it if I told you...
- Ruby
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Date: 2012-10-12 05:26 am (UTC)Me pushing you away? Are you...you've gotta be kidding me, right?
You can't make up your mind. You hold that baby like she's yours, twenty minutes later you tell me to go fuck myself and hitch a ride. You tell me to share a bed so we can sell this to Diana, then you smack me in the face.
So you'll have to give me a fucking break if I'm a little wary of letting you be near the girls.
I'm not letting you tell Diana about this, letting you confuse and hurt her, just so you can decide oh wait, it's not really what you want, and walk out the door again. I'm not doing it, Ruby.
Curses and magic, huh? Well...that I can work with. You're still not taking the girls.
-Dean
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Date: 2012-10-12 05:43 am (UTC)Walking away was... stupid. I was scared and you acted like it was just another Wednesday night, no big deal...
*holds up her hands*
I'm not... *sighs* I'm not here to argue with you. I need to understand this and you know more than you're telling me and I don't understand all the things she's telling me.
I need my family. You kept telling me, but I didn't think it was possible... I had no way of knowing just how much it would hurt.
You said I was always talking you off the ledge. Telling you how important it was for us to stick together...
*she presses the backs of her fingers to her mouth for a moment and seems to collect herself*
I understand if you don't want me. If you don't love me anymore. Hell...hate me if you want, but I can't not be a part of their lives. Once I get this figured out, because I will...I'll get back what was taken from me, I know it will be so much worse without them. Without you.
- Ruby
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Date: 2012-10-12 05:56 am (UTC)Look at me. Does it look...does it look like I don't want you? You are everything to me, Ruby. Everything. You're acting like you're the only one getting hurt here. Like it's a picnic for me to remember everything that you can't. That I remember how much I love you and how perfect we were together. You're wrong.
I wish it was me. Okay? I do. If I could take it away, if I could fix you and be broken instead, I'd do it. Cause I'm dyin here, Ruby. I'm dyin and you keep walking away and I don't know what the hell you want me to do about it.
If you wanna use me for information, to help you decode Granny, that's fine. I'll help. But you...you are not taking the girls. You don't even know them and they...are mine. They're my responsibility. I'm already losing you, I'm not letting them get messed up in this too.
-Dean
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Date: 2012-10-12 06:20 am (UTC)I only walked away once...in the diner. Then last night when we found each other again somehow...you threw me out. I keep trying to come back, trying to...to find the woman you love...loved...
I know I shouldn't have...slapped you, but... God, Dean, you make me crazy.
You're only losing me if you want to lose me, because I got a taste of being without you and... I hate it. I don't just want you for information, but she seems to know more about me that doesn't mesh with what I know. *just talking to Granny made her ache all over again for the way she'd felt when she woke up in his arms*
I'm missing so much time, and I feel like if I could just... If I can fit the pieces together, everything will be okay again. I'll remember, and maybe one day you'll consider letting me be a part of Maddie and Diana's lives again... Maybe even... *she stops before saying "yours"*
If you...if you want me, I'll be right down there. *points to her room* I can respect that you don't want me to see the girls. I'll take whatever you'll give me, Dean.
Just don't shut me out completely.
Please.
I need you too.
- Ruby
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Date: 2012-10-12 03:23 pm (UTC)*he can't help the half laugh that escapes him then along with a genuine smile and he doesn't know how this woman takes him from pissed off to laughing in 4 seconds*
I drive you crazy, huh? Well at least one thing's back to normal.
*his heart actually hurts when she says she needs him. That's a tough thing to get even Has Her Memory Ruby to admit*
Hey... *shakes his head*
*while he's holding her he whispers in her ear* If you want to know what I know, you'll have to let me show you...not tell you. If I told you, you wouldn't believe me. And I'm gonna make you promise me something I made you promise me the day we first met: You don't go running for the hills.
-Dean
((Don't know if this is going to fit in with your endgames but Dean's gonna come clean.......in SUCH a Dean Winchester way))
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Date: 2012-10-12 05:14 pm (UTC)*she shakes her head a little when he tells her to promise she won't run.*
I promise. *her voice is soft, but there's no doubt that she means it*
I have to... I need to know... to fix this. Fix us.
Do you... *she clears her throat and removes one of her hands to wipe her eyes and takes a shakey breath* Can you just do this... Hold me a little longer first.
Then... I promise I won't run... And you can show me anything.
- Ruby
((my endgames are always flexible and ever changing and evolving. lol. That's why there are at least three right now. XD))
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Date: 2012-10-12 05:24 pm (UTC)We can do this as long as you want...
*lays his cheek down on top of her head, realizing that he's turning slowly back and forth like when he holds Maddie. Force of habit he guesses*
I'll be straight with you, Ruby, I don't think it's going to fix anything and I think it's going to scare the hell out of you. But you were right...it's not fair for me not to tell you.
*he takes her by the shoulders and takes a step back after a couple minutes* Go on over to your room, I'll be there in a second.
*he gives her a little push because he knows neither of them actually want to let go right then and then ducks his head back into the room, telling Diana he and Ruby had an errand to run so she should sit tight. Finish breakfast, feed Maddie, watch some TV, whatever*
*The door to Ruby's room is unlocked and he lets himself in*
Okay. You sure about this?
-Dean
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Date: 2012-10-12 05:42 pm (UTC)I handled all of this...whatever you're about to tell me or show me...before, right?
So, I guess I'm as ready as I'll ever be...
*her hands are clasped in her lap, keeping her skirt decent*
- Ruby
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Date: 2012-10-12 05:51 pm (UTC)Fair enough.
*he holds out a hand and helps her stand up, then moves behind her and walks her over so she's standing in front of the big mirror above the motel room's dresser*
I need you to do three things. First, let me touch you. Second, watch yourself in the mirror. Last, don't scream.
*he lays his hands on her thighs and moves his fingers tips over them slowly*
Can you do that?
-Dean
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